Hujan Renyai-Renyai

I'm not sure what stops me from writing again. I miss those days when I really enjoyed writing & blogging. Buka email tadi, ada komen baru dekat entri lama. Terharu ada lagi yang sudi baca tulisan kecil saya tu🥹 Rasa macam terjentik untuk menulis lagi tapi tahlah macam dah takde rasa nak menulis. I came to a huge realization that my passion in writing has grown less over days. It shatters my heart that I'm no longer having enthusiasm over the thing I thought I would enjoy doing for a lifetime. Even so, I hope this is just a phase. One thing I realized, I started to have less interest in writing since I embarked on my internship. The correlation is, I applied for a junior writer position in this one publishing company so you can imagine how much writing I had done during that period. I almost lost count on how many times I got writer's block and I lost count on how many times I got headaches from completing writing tasks every single day. So maybe that's why I don...

Hi, it’s me again. The 2022 version of me this time. It feels like only yesterday when i first joined university and in a blink of an eye, i will be completing my internship this 26 September. How time flies. Bercakap pasal internship, there are butterflies in my stomach already huhu. Semoga semua okay jelah. I actually have just rejected this one company to accept another one offer. I really hate it when i have to make crucial decisions like this. Harapnya keputusan yang dah dibuat ni keputusan yang akan menyumbang pengalaman yang baik-baik, personal growth serta tidak memberikan tekanan. Gitew.  Takde tujuan pun update blog. Just rasa nak menaip something. By the way, im listening to taylor swift’s folklore right now jadi tolong lah dengar bersama haha tibe kan. Rasa in denial la dah final year for the upcoming semester haha. Rasa macam surreal nya dah habiskan 5 semester? I still clearly remember when i was still in first year, i mentioned about changing faculty like every day. ...

It is 1:21am now. I'm not in a good state to drink coffee, especially at this hour but the urge is just undefeatable, so I decided to write here. I don't know what I'm doing right now. I don't know what I feel. The feeling that I can't even describe with words. I have a lot of things to write. I have a lot to express but I am not sure if I should do so. There are so many things in my head, resulting in an aimless me. I'm walking without purpose. The direction is so blurry, I don't even have the guts to talk about destination.. One thing for sure, this is not the feeling one should endure. 

Assalamualaikum WBT dan salam sejahtera semua. Semoga semua sihat sentiasa dan terlindung dari segala kesusahan dan malapetaka. Insya-Allah malam ni saya nak kupas serba sedikit tentang tingkatan 6, STPM atau prauniversiti. Sama je semua yang dimention tu sebenarnya haha. So lets start now yeyeahh. Ceh tibekan macam semangat lain macam bila sebut pasal form 6 ni. Rindu sebenanrnya. Form 6 ni life phase paling singkat dalam hidup saya untuk adapt dan accept. Either kawan, cikgu-cikgu atau education itself. Serious cakap, life phase paling singkat untuk adapt dan accept ni lah yang saya takkan lupa dan akan kenangkan sepanjang hayat saya. Form six banyak mengajar saya banyak erti. Erti kepayahan, erti persahabatan, erti kesungguhan dan macam-macam lagi. Tibe rindu pulak dengan form six life even time form six dulu selalu homesick hahaha. Sebenarnya form six ni best tau. Best bila dapat kawan best, cikgu best tapi belajar tu tipu la kalau best jugak kan. Haha. Kitorang time form six str...

Bismillahirahmanirrahim. Harap semua yang membaca sentiasa sihat dan ceria, bahagia. Entry malam ni simple tapi insya-Allah akan keluarnya dari sekeping hati yang bersungguh.  20 tahun. Di mana saya rasa phase yang mencabar, baru nak kenal dunia, baru nak kenal orang keliling dan yang paling penting sekali, baru bertatih nak kenal diri sendiri. Mungkin tak ada personaliti diri pun lagi. Bila dah 20 tahun, rasa macam kena tahu keadaan sekeliling, isu dunia, politik, jangan pentingkan diri sendiri dan selalu kena letak diri dalam kasut orang lain walau macam mana beza pun saiz kaki. hihi. Seriously, we are getting old but we can still being a gold. Kena berilmu, kena ada pegangan agama dan kena sentiasa bersyukur dan berterima kasih. Hidup simple so sila jangan rumitkan atau kita sendiri yang akan stress di kemudian hari. Stress could kill you silently. Jiwa boleh terbang and you beautiful life will become lifeless. Mintak jauh. Dan mula jugaklah berfikir soal "dekat mana ...

  Jadilah seperti bintang, Tidak selalu terlihat, Tetapi selalu ada. ❤️